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Saturday

AIDS is not for Santa!!

I'm often perplexed by what is suitable for the kids to watch. I mean Children have ruled country's and fought in wars. Who am I to say whether they can watch a television about such?
I'm their fucking MOTHER that's who!! My kids are wise, and well read, and neat, and interesting. AND I am helping create these rulers of countries and stoppers of war! I expose them, but don't want to over sensitise them, but don't want to shelter them. I try my best and have even looked online for help. This has been to little to no avail. I HAVE found sites where kids... ACTUAL CHILDREN are rating whether or not they should be able to watch certain programming. UM?, this is a bit of the cat watching the canary, now isn't it??!!
Anyway, as much as I want to take advice from YET another child, I think I'll pass. There's gotta be a better way. Then it walked into my kitchen...

My Junior High Kid Said,
"Oh My God Mom, (so and so) asked if a CONDOM CAN PREVENT AIDS in health class today??!!!!

So.... THIS IS IT. My gage.

Junior High kids should flip the fuck out about the idea of anything sex related. They've never used it (even if they're reading about it books), so they don't need to see people fucking it up on the TV.

.... put it this way.... It would be hard to picture a dick* and or vagina* even after they were described to you, but once you've seen them, you'd never forget what that looked like !!
or...
It's like the last Santa Claus... don't let HBO fuck this up for them!!


*dick and vagina shall be referred to as ding ding and peep from this point further

Til Death Do Us Part

Life is hard. It can really get you down sometimes. It's nice when you have the most important people in life to help you get through it; YOUR FAMILY. Family is there for you.  FOR LIFE,  or until death, or until the death of the relationship.
I have experienced the death of every family relationship I have ever known except my Married with Children one.
I am currently going through ONE of the hardest times in my life. My health is in the toilet, both with the detox and what got me here in the first place (more luck in the 'ol genes department!!).  My finances are FUBR.
This is all causing us to use the CACA out of our vows... AND we had NOT planned on that!! HA!
SO... I've learned to ALWAYS, always, think, deep down, that Family Life always dies. Or at least this is the phobia I've developed for this VERY reason. I know this is a natural feeling. I know it's a naturally SUCK ASS Phobic FEELING.
The good about all of this is... I mean seriously, I'm bumming my own self out at this point!!
The GOOD about all of this is, (besides the fact my husband is STILL HERE??!!!) Is that I have already ridden this bike!! If the ONLY person in life left, who ACTUALLY SIGNED UP FOR THIS SHIT, bailed, I WOULD, and CAN continue on.  I've done it. I've done it MANY MANY times before. I can get through having nothing.
There is death and there is life. We have one life. We get to experience many deaths, unfortunately. That's a fucked up deal. This leaves me with the only choice I have left. I get to choose life. I also get to choose how I live MY life.
I CAN and WILL.
I CAN get through the worst life has to offer. I will not wither and die. I will live it WELL for me. I will live it right for my Married with Children family because it IS UNTIL DEATH DO WE PART and I don't think I know how to do do that?

Thursday

I'm F*cking Offended!

I really like to cuss. I cuss in my brain, at parties, around adults, and when I'm pissed at my kids. If you're offended, fuck off! I have strong feelings and emotions and VOCABULARY (I'm dyslexic, it's MY strength!) I know there is a time and place for it. If you are offended by my language and can't hear my content, MOVE THE FUCK ON. I am not in a crowded room. I am in a private location. You chose to come here!!! .... p.s. thanks for that, That was really smart of you :)

What's your point?

I've been asked, "what's your point"? It's a natural question when you start a blog, sure.
My point, is like most. My point is to win the Powerball and become fucking rich and shove it in all your faces!!

Woohoo!! I'll let whoever believes in me from the beginning "hang on" and do my dirty work though.
Next, I'm going to continue on with the American dream and become famous!!!

Okay, brass tacks reasons. I don't have a "POINT." I have a life I live. I live it the best way I know how. I got here even though my upbringing and circumstances liberally allowed for a different ending. I know MY priorities are what got me here.

I'm tired of our countries priorities being so out of whack! It's not only wrong, it's embarrassing!

I'm tired of being scared and ashamed to raised my children in this country that I love so dearly. Who decided that being rich, famous, and beautiful are the MOST fucking important things in this world? The MOST important things in this world BY far are (IN THIS ORDER)

1. Children
2. Health
3. Community
4. Education
5. Safety
6. Travel
7. Entertainment


There is a place for entertainment and enjoyment of things in our lives. I mean, I enjoy the shit out of some shit! (note: I would never make or take entertainment to the detriment of someone else though) 

But we have become so disconnected. We are afraid or don't take the time to come together and be entertained by
community,
education,
safety (How the hell is it OKAY for us to think it's wrong for a child to be out at night by them self? Touch a child?! ONCE:  JAIL FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE MOTHERFUCKER, that's my philosophy),
travel has become expensive because of supply and demand,
and entertainment is crazy expensive because we have scared ourselves into someone else hands... bravo!

I want the focus to shift in my country.  I live my life for my children, my community, and my country, and the world. I think everyone should.

Wednesday

I hope she hears me

I really wish I would have had a chance to get to know my mom before she died. I guess that is not what I wish. I wish I would have wanted my mom to live long enough to let go of a lot or all of her anger. She was slowly getting there before she suddenly died.
My Mommy fucking hated me. She fucking hated me from around the time I was 8. She started telling me when I was 12. It sucked. She didn't say it every day or the same way. She just kinda showed it and then other times said things like, "Why would you live somewhere where nobody likes you and nobody wants you?"
She also loved me. She loved me so hard and fierce. She worked SEVEN days a week at times just to support me and my 5 other siblings. She would have never given up on us. She was always there, somehow, when you really really needed her. She would go to hell and back for us and did.
My relationship with her was complicated. HA!
Anyway, now that I have children I wish I could have my mother around. I know she would have softened up and let go of a lot of anger. I don't have any toward her. I would love for my daughters to know what an extraordinary strong little gal she was. She wasn't so much a bitch as a scared dog. My poor Mommy, I miss her and love her.

Music to my mind

I am a ridiculous fan of music. I am on a never ending pursuit of music.  If I hear of a good band or artist I will look them up. If I hear a good song I will find it. If I hear a song because of a song, I will find another song and then that will make me find another song and then I will find an artist and then I will find... this process can be complicated. Anyway, During the weekend Hurricane Katrina hit Kanye West was on the cover of Time Magazine, so I read about him. He sounded interesting and when I heard his music, I liked what I heard. I mean, the song "Heartless", seriously?? Fucking. Rad. Song.
So, We were away @ a B&B in Albuquerque getting our first born checked and treated for Celiac Disease (totally another story), but this is why I was reading about Kanye and had really no idea about Hurricane Katrina until I got home after our weekend. I became a bona fide Kanye West fan as of the THAT VERY WEEKEND!! Then all of a sudden!!!

Kanye West is an ass.

He fucking called The President of the United States of America a RACIST on NATIONAL TELEVISION!
He's NOT some silly protester. He IS a paid musician representing himself. He is a paid representative of that television station at that moment. He is a paid personality representing the cause to help the people suffering from a natural disaster.
He got beat up in the media A LITTLE??? WHAT??!! This was followed by the fucking-stupid-as-fuck adage "no publicity is bad publicity" subsequently coming true and him becoming more famous. For what? Being an asshole? What? Who started selling that? Oh, that's right, THE SELLERS. Whose buying it though?
Anyway, I understand his ability to plug along as a musician. He's talented. I do NOT understand his ability to become a mogul? He is no one to follow!  He does not say controversial or interesting things. He says inflammatory, racist, stupid things. He makes some great music. He makes some stinkers, "Bound 2" side by side with the Seth Rogan, James Franco split is some of the funniest shit out there!

So here we are present day. KW GETS to go to the grammy's because the grammy's are, on the face, a TOTAL joke. On this not so normal occasion, BECK a true artist gets what is deserved and is rewarded for it on the grammys. KW then does what he does, and says inflammatory, racist, stupid things about BECK getting an award instead of Beyonce and how the grammy's need to stop playing with the people and start respecting true artistry? OMG! BECK is a ridiculously,  fantastically, talented artist who does not even come close to getting recognised enough, even if he'd want that. Beyonce sings and dances and gets recognised all the time, and so does the idiot KW. They both have talent, but they are not the one and only of music. NOT BY A LONG SHOT. Sorry to throw B in there, but facts a fact. There is AMAZING music being made out there and it IS killing what is on our stank radio. BECK is up there with that amazingness. The grammys need to stop playing with US and stop putting famous talent out there shaking there spruced up shit and bring on the TRUE MUSIC.

Anyway, it seems like people are finally getting as sick of KW as I am after this latest. I hope so. If this were so this would be music to my ears. If not, I'll keep marching on with BECK in my ears instead.